Decision

What is happening?

I don't know.

What I feared did come true, and I don't like it. What steps am I taking next? What is the more appropriate step?

Somehow I'm pretty cool headed about it, just like my usual self, but I'll be kidding myself if I say I'm not affected. How can I be unaffected, when I'm an emotionally attached person. Perhaps it's cause of the things that has been happened before, I'm more prepared for it.

I really don't know if I can take it.
Decision doesn't just lie with me.