Went to Pasta Fresca just now with dear.. Had a nice dinner, which was missing for the past few weeks. The food was actually just so-so only, we ordered one pizza, and vongole. but the waiters were actually very polite and prompt, so that's a plus.. which will make me go back to the same place if i so feel like eating pasta/pizza again. Ha.

This afternoon, i finally moved back home from des. Thanks for hosting me for this whole sem. =) It's being a really busy sem, with so many proj and CAs. It would have been a killer if I hadn't had the opportunity to sleep in. On my way home, I was virtually stoning all the way. Looking left, looking right.. This feeling hasn't been felt for darn long.. Previously, anytime when you are not doing things, the mind will be worried with what's to be done next, what's there to do, how can I finish it in time. But now, is just STONE. mind is clear.. How shiok!!!

Anyway, now I'm starting on a new regime.. FAT to FIT conversion. jia lat liao lar. inches by inches, it's pounding on. need to frantically get rid of it.. 3 months conversion course should be sufficient i think.. or at least, I hope so..

2 main core mods exams are over.. and i'm relaxed.. =) Whee~! Got one more paper to go next tues on 5th May, which i've totally not touched at all.. But i'm still relaxing now.. Wahaha...

Just finished watching Man utd vs Arsenal ECC match, which Man utd won 1-0.. Woot~! To accompany me while watching the match with Des, I bought a small bottle of red wine.. partly cos I want to have a bit of something that I've missed out for quite some time, plus a little of hooray for passing my stresssssss period le..

Oh well.. it's 5am le.. time to sleep..

All the best to all who are still working hard for exam.. JIA YOU!!!! Push on.. the end is near.. =)

Can u believe it? I got so messed up with 2104 proj, and 2202 lab report that i totally forgot about the PRE-ICT briefing that was held today at 3pm. Only when the person called me at 3.15pm, did I realise it. and guess what? I was half way thru watching Dragonball Z, cos I was so stressed up over the fact that I can't find the function of my SetB protein in Danio Rerio..

what a thing to miss... chiong down in cab, and luckily, they close one eye, let the matter rest. Seriously lar.. too many things coming together can make one go a bit siao siao..

Finish cell bio CA liao.. Still alright i guess.. Now there's 2 more things to chiong before I begin the full syllabus. today will be attempting to finish the 2104 mini project.. before I begin to do my 2202 mini proj lab report. it's seems a bit hard to finish it by tomorrow though. if it drags on, means i got less time for studying liao.. sighz.. time is time.. only a week left.. have to squeeze out every bit of time I've left..

exhausted

it's the 3rd full day of mugging in des room... test for 2103, cell bio is mad... the amount of things to be memorized is simply outstanding. Mental capacity has it's limit.. to cramp everything in.. is even tougher. Reading thru everything, but can't remb most of it.. How ? ?

I'm getting exhausted and demoralized. There's just so much to do.. And I think emotionally, it's taking a toll on me.. Never have I sucumb to pressure and emotions.. Most ppl that know me for a long time will know that. I push on whenever i encouter problems, and the bigger the pressure, the more hype up I am in completing it.. but i guess things change and i'm still a human afterall.

I feel really restricted at times. missing some of the freedom that I used to have.

Gandhi once said " Happiness is when what you think, what you feel and what you do is in harmony "

i'm still quite far away from there...

Just came back from Mandai Crematorium. 4th aunt passed away last tuesday due to cancer. It was actually a relapse and metastasis occurred. As everybody knows, when a relapse happens, it's very difficult to be controlled le. So somehow or rather, everybody was prepared for it.. It was just so sad to see the last few moments of her life struggling with pain.

First time going to mandai crematorium, very new place, and it's so much difference from the guang ming shan at Bishan. This is erm.. so modern and high-class. All the preparation for the funeral cost $7k. It's indeed not cheap to die these days.. not to mention, this is a very simple one. With not much rituals and other procedures.

Over this funeral, I had quite a bit of arguement with my mum.. She insists me going down for the wake almost everyday, and be there early. This reminds me of the book I read before.. Tuesday with Morrie. It mentioned about Morrie, who was terminally ill.. with 3 months left.. A lot of ppl wanted to see him.. But he refused to meet them. Why? His reason being, I've been alive for all these while, and non of them came to visit me for the past few years.. So why come see a dying man now? It's really true isn't it,.. If you're close to the person, you would visit him/her frequently, or at least occasionally.. but Why only show your concern by going for the wake so often? I understand that going for the wake is to pay respect for the deceased and that's the least we can do.. to the extend, everyday?

Well.. my point is.. If we are concern with the people around us, we should try to pay more attention and more care while they're alive.. What's the point of doing all these when we are dead lying in the coffin? Important thing is that we treat all that matters to us well and care for them while we still can.. Don't wait till then.... Then come regret...

It hasn't been pleasant at home.. with arguements flying and unhappiness filling the air. Nagging and complains are the topics at home. How to get peace? it's rather irritating when u are trying to study for test, to know that the room cannot be use and u need to shift to the living room to study.. adding to that, the TV is on, watching variety show.. how to concentrate like that?

It's the first time that I felt like leaving house for a prolong period of time... Felt rebellious.. and I've never done that, cos I thought i have being rather mature so far... Apparently not so for my mum.... she said to my sis " why care about him.. he's always not at home de.. I ask u buy, u just buy.. don't need to care what he says." How hurtful is that to hear.. It's not that i always purposely dont' want to come home.. but the distance and time spent is really a bitch.. When u end sch at 11pm.. still head back to tampines when next day lesson is at 10? how to do any work ?

It's furstrating that this is the treatment I get at home at times, knownign that we should treasure what we have, and not complain so much... but seriously, I don't think many ppl are doing the things that I'm doing at home.. doing hte household chores at times, not providing any trouble or probelm to them, not taking allowance.. is it just so hard to give me a peace of mind when my tests are here?

yes, i'm sad... I shouldn't be bitching about it. But I just can't get it out of my head now.. Rawr~!

It's quite dead... both my blog and me.. Well.. It's kinda sad, but i really don't have much mood to update lately. it's really busy... How interesting my life can be when it just revolves around studying.

Now looking at going to Bangkok for a weekend trip, or perhaps work at the safari during the hols, or even taking up blading and tennis lesson.. I've got quite a lot of thigns coming up to fill my 3 month break. But first of all, I'll need to pass this 3 weeks first... horrible..

Edwin asked me to join him for a YEP trip next May, regarding a green school project. Hmm... it sounds interesting actually, a bit of the environmentally conservation that direction.. Will think more about it Soooooonn... now.. cast it aside

Finally, LSM 2202 lab work has concluded.. 6hrs of lab is a bit de long.. but at least it was interesting.. nonetheless, i can't imaging myself working in the lab for the rest of my life.. it's erm... nvm.. oh well.. i still had quite a bit of fun during this lab.. there was quite a bit of OTOT, laughter and cockness from 4 of us.. Tyco that we got into the same group, sitting side by side some more.. lolz..

My lab group.. Thursday Group, Bench 1.


Went to Cheesecake cafe, along siglap rd after tuition just now.. The ambience is quite nice, plus the food not bad, but the price a bit costly wor.. Nevertheless, I'm sure I will still go back there again, cos I quite enjoy the setting..


my eyes are bigger... =D